Too young girl Mother abandoned herself and me Branded and tried she cried Young honey, I know you’re a mistake If you drop me in the road Mommy I can’t swim hopping: If you leave me, a toad I’m a burden to lose: You are happy for a new sin I’m mama’s little bane
you’re like Mama:
Cradling a kid’s cookie,
she bled in my birthing
an umbilical to shame
not the bloodline of a king.
cried on me too
a refuse refused that
she placed on a doorstep,
and I was confused
she let us be trash,
be doorstop unknowns
’cause I’ve been cried on before.
an afterthought refused,
wanting fame and not
an unknown,
you’ll be leaving
a child who’s been teased,
taunted, orphaned in swamps
where drowning children wait.
lily pads are not strong.
hoping to croak, not
coping on fried flies,
tongue tasting alone,
I’ll be stoking a fire
with a photo of you,
asking why you
promised me I was yours
and God knows I’ve done your chores
but I’m refuse-refused sores to you
even though I have given you
every gift you wanted. Daunted
you flaunting him
a thriller you choose.
making love to promises
giving birth to my pain
a burden to lose.
you’ll be alone again too
beautiful and thin
empty of love
left behind
cried on